AT Fears.

I was reading my friend’s blog about his adventures hiking the AT and for the first time I realized how terrified I am about doing this alone.
The reason I am terrified is because it means that I will have to step out on my own making my own connections with people. I won’t have anyone to fall back on when I am awkward and cannot think of anything to say. I won’t be able to have a friend start the conversation or make connections. It will just be me with my pack and my sleeping bag who is endearingly named Miguel.
I have never been one to not make friends easily…but it has always been because there was someone else nearby helping me feel comfortable and confident.
I will have to hold my own and be my own. And currently trying to make friends with my coworkers I realize how awkward I am and how timid I am…
I am afraid to face myself by facing other people out on the trail…alone.

This is a part of why I wanted to hike alone…and I know that this will be so good for me to finally grow up a little bit and learn to boldly be me and not hide behind someone else…but going outside your comfort zone is scary.