So today I moved to Williamsburg, VA to live with my parents in order to save money to hike the AT. But the truth is that I have literally cried all day. I felt so much myself in DC and healthy and happy. I know it takes time to adjust...but I know no one and I can't find a co-ed soccer team to be on.
Remember how in the movie Into the Wild he realized that happiness was only real when it was shared. I guess I am having some major doubts about all of this...5 months in a place where I don't know anyone...and then 5 months in the woods...well that's a lot of time alone.
I feel like I did in Nashville...very alone and defeated. Maybe it will get better but I don't know if this is how I want to feel for the next 5 months. I didn't like it in Nashville...and I do not like it here...it's not where I want to be.
Maybe I am just not keeping my eye on the prize...but today I am really sad and don't want to be here.
Update: I have a second job interview with Red Lobster...
Feelings: sad, defeated, frustrated, lonely, pathetic.
Savings: That is all up in debate...I am hoping to have at least 500 still saved but I don't know.
To be honest I am feeling that all of this isn't worth it. Maybe I should have taken the job offer with Strayer and stayed in DC.
I felt so strong in DC...here I just feel defeated. I don't wanna work at Red Lobster or live at home with my parents...
I feel heavy all over again. I really need to push through this I know...
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